My husband and I live in a close community and where he is living now is not far from where I live. Since our messy break up I’ve spent the majority of my time at home, or at least in the park, so I could avoid running into him. Our email communication was rocky at best and I didn’t want to face him. We were communicating well the night of my healing ceremony so I simply asked him to avoid the area I was going and he respected it.
I’ve come to understand my anxiety about seeing him also meant I was avoiding things that could help me heal, like walks and sitting by the ocean to meditate.
He had been pushing me to have a face to face with him. Even though I didn’t quite feel ready I went ahead. That meeting itself went well. We went for lunch, at a local place, but after seeing each other communication fell apart again.
It’s a long process where we are still figuring everything out individually before we can consider being together again.
The advantage of taking that step of seeing him? I don’t need to feel anxious about an accidental run-in. We crossed the barrier and I am no longer afraid to go for walks outside the park where I live.
This picture? I walked down to visit the ocean for a few minutes today.