What do bad days look like for me?
I’m having one. I’m going to try to describe it.
I barely slept last night. I had a fight with my ex about my personal choices. We are realizing we might not be able to reconcile. He’s still ‘at me’ about it in email today and I feel totally responsible. I drank yesterday and? Already drinking this morning. Wine over coffee on bad days. And I feel like a disgrace to humanity.
I know I am not a horrible human for drinking wine at 9am. But why can’t I fix this?
I’m in so much misunderstood pain today. I don’t know me enough to figure it out. I can’t even figure my shit out and I am being attacked for it.
I’m scared. I feel alone even though so may people reach out to me. I’m sad today. I can’t see light today.
This is so much more difficult than I imagined. All I want is wellness.I had no idea it came with so much pain.