Make Up My Mind Already…. Right?

What do I even want?

I’ve always this side of me that is a total slut. I don’t know where it came from.

I’ve always had a side that can be the most devoted partner you could ever hope for.

Maybe? I want to be the dirty slut you want to make your wife because I come with all those qualities.

Do I want to be sober? I’ve been drinking so much wine since that douche bag hurt me that my tongue hurts. I’m so dehydrated my skin is flaking off my face. And I have a steady flow available. My boys bring me wine and weed all the time. It’s hard to turn down because I want their company. And that could be sex or not. Sometimes it’s just someone to eat your dinner with.

I don’t feel lonely. I feel like I turn down more company than I have over.

Do I want to be healthy by being active? As soon as I feel down? That goes out the window.

I’m so confused.

I want desperately to focus on my physical, emotional and spiritual healing. I do well sometimes. I go weeks on a good path and then? Shit happens and I lose my path. How do you keep on your path?

Days like today? I sit here and self loathe because I feel so incapable and completely lost. And then I react with behaviour like messaging all my fave boys pics of my tits just to have my ego stroked by their replies. And I try to arrange a sex date. (Because who doesn’t want to fuck an unshaved anywhere, crying mess in sweatpants, right?)

Will there be a time I can fix this? Is this my destiny? To be lost and unsure all the time?

Who Am I Seeing? (A Sex Update)

Well, to be honest… I have this sort of boyfriend. He’s a lot older than me (mid-60s) but super young at heart.

One of my fave things about him is that he doesn’t expect me to stop being me. I can see who I want. Spend time with who I want. Fuck who I want. He’s kind of pervy (like me) so he only wants to hear about it. It turns him on, actually. I really like that about him.

He does like me a lot so he occupies my time quite a bit but I am okay with that.

Until me? He hadn’t been with a woman in 10 years. He is a bit lonely and sex deprived. It makes me wonder if he will just take what he can get LOL However, he assures me I am exactly the kind of woman he has been wanting all his life. He treats me like a princess and a slut at the same time.

He spoils me more than I am used to. I mean, all the men in my life tend to spoil me but he goes the extra mile. I don’t want for anything. He bought me a crazy awesome toy I actually need help to use. He owns a giant boat so he took me out too look at the other islands around here and taught me how to drive it, Yes, I drove a 41ft boat for the first time last month. He said he wants to take me all around the islands here. I also get to tan naked on his upper deck in the middle of the ocean which is cool.

And he dances. I have waited a long time to meet a man who will dance with me. He danced first when we started dancing together. He loves to even dance alone. How perfect is that?

And still? I fucked a delivery guy last night because I tip well LOL I fooled around with Mr. Corvette guy tonight (but he wants to fuck me with the new boat guy watching) And I sucked a cock this morning. It was a thank you to the guy who introduced me to boat guy.

So I am still being Shaunda for sure.

Yes, I have a few new pics. I need to put them onto this computer so I can post them but I will do an all pics post shortly. Just pics with no story about them LOL Boat guy bought me a giant toy. Makes for great pics. Like I said… I am spoiled.

How To Be Lesbo With A Straight Chick

Shaunda the Slut loves them all.

I think the men in my life wonder why I hesitate to meet the women they know. Those ones who also like a bit of box now n then. I want to explain why.

Men are raw. They are more open to fucking and doing anything. It’s dirty and lusty and slutty. I can easily fuck a strange man and be fine with that. But I love women. I can handle four men at a time but really only want to be alone with a girl.

Women are more sensitive. They need more time. Making a woman orgasm starts by talking to them. Find a way to make them feel beautiful. Compliment them. Listen. Touch their leg or arm as they speak to you and respond to what they are saying with interest. Do they drink? Pour a glass of wine. Do they love music? Listen to whatever they like. Make it all about them.

Once they open up just a bit they are pretty much yours. That’s especially funny if they have insisted all evening how ‘straight’ they are. Keep talking about dick instead of convincing them about pussy. They will be so raging horny from talking about dick they will be putty in your hands and pudding on your face.

Let them make the first move. When I’m making moves on a gal? They usually already know I am bi-sexual. So I wait for them to reach out. When you are talking intimately with someone and showing genuine care for what they say they often want to give you a kiss. I kiss a lot of my straight friends in friendly way. When that happens just lean in a bit longer. Turn it into an extra long extra tight hug as you kiss. Sometimes they feel a little less straight after that LOL

Always be respectful. Know that no means no if they pull away. Make them feel good about themselves if it happens. You won’t always get with them first try. Respectful responses go a long way to getting in their pants next time LOL

If you get past the kiss? Go slow. Always check to make sure they are comfortable and feel okay with whatever you are doing together. Ask what they want. Be gentle until they want otherwise. Keep reminding her she can stop at any time.

Then enjoy! Once a woman allows you to travel past the northern mountains to her netherland you just need to perform. Go soft or hard depending on how she is responding. Use tongue or toys or both. Always make sure she cums. NEVER expect reciprocation from a ‘straight’ woman until you have done it a couple times. Just please her.

When all is said and done? Make sure to let her know again she was beautiful. Thank her for letting you be the first for her.

I have a lot of girl on girl first timers. Its why I don’t just meet other peoples female sex buddies. My current gal is 60, super hot and always comes back for more. My moves work 😉

In The Night

WARNING: This contains XXX content. Please don’t read it if you don’t appreciate this kind of writing.

I miss something by being single. Middle of the night sex. You only get it from sleeping beside someone you trust. I don’t sleep with many men. I fuck them and send them off.

Sex in the night? Let me tell you.

As I am fast asleep you put your hand on me. I’m on my side but a gentle tug rolls me onto my back. You want to touch me but not wake me.

You begin by pulling down my duvet and exposing my breasts. Pillowy, soft and so inviting you start there. Touching them with such little pressure. Trying not to wake me. You kiss them tenderly. Let your tongue softly taste my nipples and your hands work their way down.

You move them over my soft belly to my hips. Your lips follow.

You are kissing me down one side, across my belly and back up to my shoulder. You can smell yesterday on me. Slight vanilla lotion with a bit of morning breath. Doesn’t matter. You kiss my neck and begin to travel your tongue down my body.

As you get close to my belly button you begin to use one hand on my thigh as the other rests on my breast. You stroke my creamy white, ample thighs and in my sleep they naturally part a bit.

You kiss me hip to hip. Right above my panty line. Wondering if you should go further.

That’s when I move in my sleep, slightly moaning, pushing upward. You can smell my desire in my sleep and you use your hand to push my thighs apart enough to kiss my dampened panties. I’m waking up a bit.

As I stir while I wake? You tug my panties down just enough to expose the lips. Soft, bare, plump, pink… you need to kiss them. As I fully wake it is to the soft kisses of a strong but gentle tongue licking my lips. And I moan. And I push forward forcing your tongue to slip between them.

Your tongue is a natural. You go immediately to that special spot and gently suckle my button. I try to spread my legs but I am trapped by my panties so you remove them completely.

I’m awake now. My legs are spread and you are so tenderly licking and kissing me as I thrust on your face.

That is when you begin grabbing my hips. Pulling me on your face. You use one hand to spread me open further and slide a finger inside me. I gasp a bit. You look up to see my smile and push a little more hard.

As my pussy starts to convulse with pleasure? You move back up my body. Gentle kisses across my belly, between my breasts and up to my mouth.

You kiss me. Hard. I want to taste myself on your lips so I suck them and nibble at them as I feel your hard cock throbbing against my thigh.

You want in me. I feel it. You use your hand around your cock to slowly push into me. My thighs quiver. My mouth opens and I whimper slightly as you enter.

Your one arm goes around me holding me close as your other hand wanders. Your lips caress my own. Then my neck. Your free hand is tangled in my hair now and you control where your lips go.

It tickles with pleasure. The more you use your tongue on my neck and my collarbone the harder I thrust against you. Moaning and whimpering and begging you not to stop.

And we finish. I’m shaking, dripping your pleasure from my quivering cunt, and tired.

And we fall back asleep.

Was it just a dream?

Finger Banging

WARNING: XXX content

I seriously love a good finger bang.

Probably because I didn’t get that in my youth. Most girls start out with a lot of making out in their teens and eventually work their way up to losing their virginity. I didn’t really have that. I had one guy I was super good friends with but he was gay. And this other guy who was 16 and had emancipated himself from his parents. My parents liked him and we spent a lot of time together but it never went past the occasional holding hands. He respected my dad so he obeyed rules.

These days? It’s my favourite thing in the universe. Laying down with some candles and music. Talking, touching, kissing, laughing. Slowly taking off each others clothes. Smiling. Giggling.

And I say, “I want your fingers in me.”

So gently my panties are pushed down or to the side. Tugged off? How do want it? Should they be on so I can soak them for you? My pussy loves to be opened up. You need to start slow with one finger but when it is worked up to two? It’s when I get super wet.

And I will push against you. I will tell you MORE. More, please. I want to be full of you. I want you to stretch me wide and go all in. Can you get me open enough to jerk off in my pussy? I’ve only had that once and he had small hands and dick but it was hot!!

Yes, my latest favourite pleasure is a really good finger bang.

Relationships (AKA Who I’m Fucking ) Update

Okay, so I am still dating Forest Gump. Also dating a cop (that looks like Mario from Donkey Kong). Had a date with the grocery store meat guy (I want the best cuts of meat LOL) but turns out he doesn’t eat pussy. So that’s a no. I’ve seen Big D. The orgy? I’ll write an entirely different post about that one.

The only person I have not seen in a long time? Is the one I want the most.

Forest Gump – He’s completely daft. He has already told me I am the perfect woman for him. I told him that is not true. I made it clear, again, he does not know me well enough to say that. He buys me odd but thoughtful gifts. Looms and wool so I can make toques. A Nintendo backpack. I don’t like video games but this is actually kind of a cool pack. He wants me to meet his family. He unloaded all that on the third date. It was date two when he said he loved me LMAO.

He does fuck like a champion. He’s eager to please me in any way I want. He gives foot rubs. He eats pussy, well. Nice cock even if it’s average. But he is also open to anything I suggest.

Also, a Mormon. He has this sex vs sin thing that affects him. Sometimes it is hot and other times not so much.

Mario (cop, so maybe Super Mario) – He likes to hike. He took me to a nude river. He’s kind. Even if I don’t feel like fucking he will drive the hour to see me anyway. He took me garage saling (a passion of mine) and I found amazing things.

He’s an eager lover. Wants to please. Average cock. Seriously open minded. There are some things I want to explore with him. However, I have yet to feel passion. That could be my fault for not really expressing what I need when I am with him. I’m bad for that.

We did hangout together recently where we spent our first night together in the same bed. He doesn’t snore and he doesn’t try to over-cuddle. Bonus points for that!

Big D – I don’t see him as much as I’d like but I do still see him. See the post titled Big D if you want the details LOL

Still I miss my favourite guy. He’s been busy and sick and whatever else excuse. I never gave him a nickname like the others. I hear from him every once in a while. Like once a week maybe a text. And see him every two weeks or sometimes three. A far cry from every day and night like last Spring. He tells me why he can’t or doesn’t see me. I am choosing to believe what he shares with me. I want to be compassionate. But I miss him.

The sex? He gets me off every time we get sexy. He’ll do whatever. He joins me on playdates. He is so open to everything. Great cock. Waking up to him, either his bed or mine, is my favourite.

What I crave from him though? I want to hear him sing to me. I want him to play obscure albums for me while we cook epic, healthy food together. I want to fall asleep on his couch as we watch classic movies on VHS.

So that is the update. Who I’m fucking and who I am not. Of course it doesn’t include the one-off’s. They’ll each get a story when I am up to writing more.

Spooning At It’s Finest

I’ve always wanted to involve food in my play.

Last night when my main playmate asked me if I wanted dessert? I told him yes. Did he have ice cream? Of course he did because he loves sweet things.

Neapolitan. Kind of boring and I teased him. “You could have thrown a little difference in there with green. Be Spumoni in a Neapolitan world LOL Neapolitan is where every form of boring ice cream collides.”

He asked sincerely how he could make it better.

I told him I have never had ice cream eaten off me and have always wanted to do food play.

He grabbed a bowl n spoon n towel.

He put the towel on the couch. I laid back as he spread my thighs. At first he just dripped a bit of ice cream all around my thighs. I told him it was cold and he licked it all off warming me up.

It was then he began to drip it onto my clit and lick. Suddenly more ice cream was on the spoon and he rubbed it up and down my lips as I squirmed from the Brrr.

I thought it was fun and sexy. I never thought there could be more.

However, he suddenly had this giant spoon full of ice cream. He spread my pussy wide as he could and put the spoon in. Then he lapped up everything that dripped out while he used the spoon to fuck and stretch me.

It was a lot of ice cream. He licked and tongued everywhere that cream dripped. All while spoon fucking me.

I started moaning and squirming. And for the first time in a long time? I was suddenly squirting all over his face.

We decided Neapolitan plus Shaunda? Is called Cumoni.

Big D

I have a soft spot for Big D. I met him through my main playmate. He’s been involved in a few groups activities I have been at. He’s usually the centre of attention for the ladies LOL He’s BIG. But he is more than his cock.

He’s the kind of filthy dirty all women crave but none are willing to admit. I’m number four on his roster of gals. He has his main playmate. And his baby gurl. And other’s I don’t know…  but I live closest so I get to see him more often.

What I like most is the deviant nature of him. He knows where to find my hidden key which means he can sneak into my place at any time in the night.

I’m often roused from slumber by him standing beside me. He’s pulled back my blanket and pushed up my nightshirt and I see him gazing at my cotton panties or my bare pussy lips. He’s rock hard and he pushes up against my thigh.

I moan and try to turn away but he pulls me back on to my back and shushes me. “It’s okay, baby. We won’t tell anyone about this.”

He climbs on my bed and kneels between my thighs and rubs that throbbing log of wood on my pussy lips. Suddenly I realize it was his tongue that woke me because I am soaking wet.

I whimper a bit as he leans forward and whispers, “It will only hurt for a second….  ” And he enters me.

It does hurt. Only until it doesn’t. As I relax? My body can take it and suddenly I am pushing against him for more.

But he loves when I am out of the comfort zone. So he turns me over and pulls me on to my knees. Then his fingers are in my juicy cunt as he searches out my asshole with his tongue. And I squirm.

He’s so tall and over powering. He’s built like a brick. He can pin my arms with one hand as he pushes his other hand into my pussy and his tongue delves further into a place I don’t allow anyone.

And when I think I can’t experience anything more pleasurable? He flips me over. He leans deep and thrusts that giant cock so far into me I can barely breath.

As I catch my breath he is kissing my neck and telling me what a good girl I am. He asks me to tell him about all the dicks I have had in me since he saw me last. As I tell him? He thrusts harder. I cry out with some pain but he keeps going, reminding me I am good slut and that he enjoys my slutty little pussy. As I tell him what a good little slut I will be for him? He fills my pussy.

Grunting and thrusting he groans and I can feel the pulsing of him finishing inside me.

There is something special about how Big D leaves me spent and fulfilled.

Riddle Me This

Here’s a simple riddle:

Three guys message “what are you up to?” (there has been one date with each, two put on the moves already and the third was the least attractive so a bt shy, none have been slept with)

All three get the same reply, “I’m loving the rain is cooling off my place so I can get some things done around my home and maybe do some baking later. But I need to get to the store first so I’m getting ready for that.”

Guy 1: So no time to have a quick fuck?

Guy 2: Maybe we should ‘cuddle’ to a movie instead.

Guy 3: OKay, I know you’re busy. But you shouldn’t have to walk or take a bus in the rain. I have some time today so I could give you a ride. That would give us time to just hang out. But no pressure.

Which guy will get the pleasure of my company today?

I know what I am known for. I’m the Princess of Sluts. Queen of Debauchery. Right?

In truth? I go round about with sex. So it’s not surprising that one friend replied with a quirky, tongue-in-cheek reply.

“Well #3 is the only one who put your needs into his response, so he seems like the best choice. But knowing you, you’ll pick #1, kick him out in time for #2 to watch a movie, and tell #3 that you could use the ride tomorrow. ”

I’m laughing because he is so honest. Also he knows me much better than I realized. And he did tell me, after, it was tongue n cheek. But I also see the reality of how I am seen.

I replied to him with the honest answer of the riddle.

“You do know me. Too well, apparently. LOL

BUT,  I’m trying to make changes in my life. So I chose another path today.

I told #1 to go fuck himself. I told #2 he should try harder.

And #3? Well, he’s gonna drive me to errands and expect nothing. But I’m working on the cookies before he picks me up so I can give him treats and I plan to give him a kiss goodbye.

If, during our outing, he makes me laugh and smile? I plan to ask him up to hang out and look at music online to see if that is a fit for us. Because I know he won’t pressure me for more.”

That is the truth. I’m not going to stop being who I am but I am going to have times as I am growing that I try on ‘self respect’ as a thing I might like.

Mr. Corvette Guy

Yep! This is an award winning Corvette, featured in magazines, that has Lambo style doors that open upward. And this pic was taken outside my door because the owner rolled up in it.

Mr. Corvette Guy gave permission to write about him as long as I call him that.

He has this crazy amazing job that allows him a lot of freedom but also keeps him on call 24/7. And it’s super private. I mean, he has told me but I am not allowed to give details. He’s like top of the line of the blue collar stuff. One of a few people in North America that have the tickets to do what he does. We live between two military bases he subcontracts himself to.

He found me online and decided he likes to spend his at least some of his off time with me.  Fucking. He’s a playmate.

It started out like once a month. And it was brief visits for sex. But in the past month has turned into him texting me almost daily to check in and see if I am having a good day. No intention to visit…  just checking on me.

Sometimes? He just wants to relax in my bed and watch movies together. He even brought over the appropriate electronics things to put movies on my TV in the bedroom instead of this laptop. My bedroom was too warm? He brought me a fan to help cool things off. He brings food. Wine. Always asks before he shows up if I need anything he can bring.

Do I feel spoiled? You bet. He’s very generous. Kind.

And, of course, we are fucking.

He knows my main playmate. We have been in situations together before (that’s how I met Mr. Corvette Guy). He has no problem with me saying I can’t get together because I’m with my guy. My guy has no issue with me inviting Mr. CG to come over if he wants to hang out all of us.

Back to the fucking.

Up until now it was a bit vanilla. He likes to cuddle up to a movie and then slip in from behind while spooning.

Tonight? I’m not sure if it was because we kept missing each other this week or what but the anticipation had me over the top. He came over tonight.

We listened to some tunes and took it to the bedroom quick. Maybe it was because he noticed I changed my duvet cover (I like it when guys notice details). Maybe it was because we laid in my bed and talked for almost an hour about life stuff as we listened to music. Maybe it was because he told me he loves it when he can stop by and actually have the time to spend just hanging out together before sex.

Tonight there was no spooning. Tonight he totally fingered me exactly how I told him to. Tonight he wanted missionary style so he could watch me. We talked about what each of wanted as it happened. He did exactly as I asked. His fingers and cock were tools at my disposal.

And tonight? I came so much more hard with him than before. Tonight he kissed me for the first time. We both thought it was weird but agreed we kiss well together LOL His arms around me. My legs around him. We both came so hard together before we collapsed on the bed in a fit of laughter. Neither of us expected it to be so crazy awesome, tonight.

We’ve agreed to work on that more. He wants to take pictures and videos. He wants to spend more time just talking. He wants to put me in other positions and see if we get off as hard.

Mr. Corvette Guy is one of my favourite guys. I’m excited to have more stories with him.